Life's been tough. Really. So many things going on in my head its not even funny. I'm confused. I'm unmotivated. I'm screwed.
So that's my irritated rant. Looking forward:-
1) Leaving my current job
2) Starting my job at Canterbury Card on 1 February 2008
3) Spend more time with Church
4) Spend more time with friends
5) Spend more time with Eunice
6) Activities and more activities
7) Getting into more serious photography and digital art aka Photoshop
8) AIESEC, well....ugh.. we'll see about that
9) Starting Honours
10) Japan conference/trip
Hmm.. that's 10 things that I can currently think of, and I sure did miss out some, but it just doesn't register in my head at the moment.
On a side note, a week or two ago, the Macbook Air was released. That's right fellas. Thinnovation. "The World's Thinnest Notebook" . Dang, I'd seriously love to get one of those. Like, man, that is superb. It clearly does look so pretty just like Toshiba's Portege series. Heck, this is even better. I can see where the design came from, and I think not many care to even bother, but I'd say it anyway. That's right, it has the same design concept of the latest(3rd gen) iPod Nano. One that I have, and silver in colour too. Gorgeously curvy and sexy. OoooooooOOohhhh.
Rewind a couple of days back, and I was back playing World of Warcraft- in a private server. No fees. Nice. But laggy and consistently bugged, it's just not even playable. WoW has become so mundane, boring and repetitive that it isn't fun to play anymore. After a few hours, I felt like vomiting at my seat. Nice try Cheong, but I think I'd pass on your offer to play WoW again.
Fast forward to today, I felt like the for the last couple of weeks, or months to be honest, I had been seriously sleep deprived, possibly suffering from insomnia but that characteristic must've been masked subtly in my conscience, cheating me and my body. It's also quite retarded that pharmacists require prescriptions to purchase sleeping pills, and I doubt doctors here would even allow patients to purchase sleeping pills. Maybe its because it's the most common matter for drug abuse, mostly suicide attempts.
On that same note, look here
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Just months after struggling with insomnia and stress over two demanding film roles Heath Ledger is dead, discovered with prescription drugs, including sleeping pills, nearby.
"Insomnia was limiting him to an average two hours sleep a night.
He had taken a drug, Ambien, to little effect: one pill was ineffective and after he took a second he slept an hour but then woke, his mind racing.
"My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going," he said, while admitting he had "stressed out a little too much" about his role in the Bob Dylan film I'm Not There."
Yup, damn right, sleeping pills. AND insomnia. Couple that together and you have a potential timebomb that is ticking in your body. Sadly enough, what Heath is facing is exactly what I am facing now. Averaging two hours sleep a night. "My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going". "Stressed out a little too much". Yup, that sure sounds like me. Without the drugs (because I can't freaking get it easily here) of course. I have a potential timebomb in me that has begun started ticking already I'm afraid.And now, time to change that all. Yeap, BE the change. Make it happen before i burnout and die without a cause, alone. So that should be my major concern for the next 2 weeks or so. To make changes happen in my life for the better.
Finally, I'd like to add that last night I was enlightened and inspired with reading a friend's friend blog, who goes by the name of Huei. Not that I really know this person, but only seen her a couple of times during my high school days and once, or twice during my early years in university, she is young, being 18 this year, and boy oh boy her graphic design skill just amazes me with her portfolio and all her graphic work.
Like, with that sort of level of creativity and competency in digital art, AS WELL AS photography, it becomes a deadly combo that is highly required in the digital media world. If she were to start her own design company today, she'd nailed it right on the spot and start making big bucks.
Not only that, she also has the ability to produce amazingly creative and fantastic graphics work in a relatively short time/notice. With just a minimal two hours into work, and she has a brand spanking new poster that is worthy of printing and putting up in the streets. For me, to work on one freaking touch up on a picture, hear me, I said ONE, takes me hours on end to get it right.
So with her level of ability, she is like a role model to me, even at her tender age. Geee, the generation nowadays. Looks like in time I'll be completely out of this technology age, just like my parents and their generation. Ugh, the horror !
To top it off, she has bought an entire darkroom set a year or so a go from a guy in Cashmere selling for only $200 where it would have costed about $5000. And so, she has a darkroom in her house. Fantastic.
Her photography. Damn fine I'd say. She uses a fully-manual film Yashica camera that is like what?, 30 years old? F***, if a young girl can use a fully-manual film camera in this day, her talent is equivalent to a professional photographer. I even have difficulties adjusting exposures on my easy-to-use Canon 400D DSLR. Huei is a person that I'd look up to, just because of this. Fully-manual film camera, darkroom processing (think chemicals,skill and time), and digital art and post-processing. This level of talent in a young girl is certainly hard to come by. Man, I'd seriously would like to date a girl which has these talents so that we can spend more time with one another sharing something that we're passionate about together.
Boy oh boy, writing this up already fuels me with the inspiration to get into more serious digital post-processing playing around and learning more and as fast as I can in Photoshop and photography. I need more practice, more time to go out and more pictures definitely! Practice, practice, practice.
p/s: At work at the moment, will post the link to the blog when I'm home.
So that's my long rant catch-up over the past couple of weeks. Ta.
